loneliness is all that I know anymore
emptiness..

the feeling of wasting away.
of being nothing to no-one

I'm so tired of leading a life of giving
giving giving giving giving giving
and never receiving..

always asking how are you ?
never hearing, how are you in return.
saying Thank You and never hearing
your welcomed in return..

why is it so when you ask me and without thinking I'm
always saying yes, and never hearing it in return from you..

it's been far too long
it's been far too many times
it's been far too many people

does it matter anymore ?
I don't think so really

I'd sooner lay down tonite and let it all end.

if there is a God who is merciful why does
he continue to suffer me this way ?
I ask not out of compassion, but out of
the plain need to know - why has he forsaken
me to this life of pain and loneliness if I am
such a faithful servant ?

emptiness is all I feel anymore.
just a sore wounded chasm left after
giving all that I had - all that I was
all that I would ever be.. for what ?

no one to say ever -
what's wrong, why are you sad,
why are you crying..not a soul

just an emptiness that has consumed me
until I no longer care if I am here or not.

sad sad sad,, and not one soul notices..
all the faces in a day - all the voices in a day
not one really notices - not one takes the time.

takes the time to see what is there in front of them.

Not hidden, not pretending, not cloaked
just plain wasting away in plain site.

such a tragedy and no one even notices.
You have killed me, drained me and tossed me without
even as much as a thought or a look, so to you I say
Thank You - for showing me who you are, and who I was.. to you all,

goodbye..